I found myself casually searching the web, looking at social media updates, emails, and the latest fashion trends. I began to look at my favorite fashion store websites. I wasn’t expecting to find anything at all until my eyes pondered over this gorgeous piece of aquatic delight known to man, a blue/green sequined black bikini! Here’s what happened…
I was just searching the web, you know, checking some emails, looking at some classes to take at school, and stumbling upon a few fashion websites. I reached Forever 21, as usual, I checked to see what the new arrivals entailed. Upon looking at what my beloved favorite clothing store had to offer, I stopped at this gorgeous bikini that right then and there, I decided I needed to buy! I ran over to my wallet and grabbed my credit card. Guilt started to rush through my thoughts as if I had just experienced a sugar high. I started to look around my room and looked at everything that I had recently bought (makeup, clothes, jewelry, you feel me). I began to go through my bikinis and saw that I already have more than I needed. And then it hit me! I realized I couldn’t buy this beautifully, sparkly, piece of fashionable swim wear delight. Instead, I sat there, dwelling on how this bikini would have looked on me; how it would’ve looked in selfies, how it would’ve looked while lying in a lounge chair by the pool, how it would’ve looked with makeup on to match it, how it would’ve looked on the beach, how it would’ve looked in some jean shorts and lace crop top, and so on. I had to except the cold hard truth and finally say it out loud. “I am a shopaholic… I am addicted to shopping and it needs to stop!” In that moment, I realized that a single bikini isn’t worth my future. I’m not willing to risk everything that I have worked for just to experience a little slice of happiness that I will possibly get bored with after wearing it once. I have come to my senses and realized that I should be saving my money for other things.
From there on after, I need to dedicate myself to only buy the necessities and only occasionally splurge. As it is my promise to myself to save up for my goals as my future depends on it.
The moral of the story for all my fashionistas out there is that you can’t buy every piece of clothing in sight. Be as picky with shopping for clothes as you are when you’re ordering food in a restaurant. You might be craving a lot of dishes, but your stomach can only hold so much. Just like how you want to buy multiple outfits, but your money isn’t endless.